So for those of you not in the know about my personal life: I’ve been going through some pretty ridiculous stuff in the past five weeks. Probably the worst part about this is periods of super intense depression. Every now and then a wave washes over me and makes everything seem completely hopeless, pointless, etc., etc. Like, I spent Wednesday through Friday afternoon pretty much just irritated that there are people in my life that love me because that meant I couldn’t kill myself.
Conversely, this has also led to some really positive things, because let me tell you, when you’ve been wishing you were dead, any moment that doesn’t feel like that suddenly becomes the best moment of your life. So the past couple of days have been some of the best moments of my life. Thank you Jesus.
More than anything, I’m writing this as a reminder for myself for the next time that wave hits me. Also, please no one be concerned! The good moments by far outweigh the bad.
When I’m having a particularly bad day, I just remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days is 100%. And that’s pretty darn good.
When I was in college, there was this kid in my department. Everyone thought he was really weird because his hair was kinda gross and he wore pajama pants EVERY DAY and he was really quiet. I worked on a show with him and found out that he was the nicest, sweetest, most helpful person ever, and…
I’m pretty sure I know who Mary is talking about. This is such an important reminder! I too hope he’s doing really well, wherever he is.